ARGH!

Hydrating has NOT helped my muscle spasms... they are horrible!! AND... my leg itches so badly I am really thinking of taking this cast off and scratching my leg for an hour straight.

Oooh... enough venting!! I can tell that my arms are getting stronger with all this crutching around. I am determined to get in some kick ass shape once I can!! And we might be going to the beach this summer so all the more reason to get it together!

H2O

My husbands birthday dinner was a success as you can clearly see by this silly picture. You can't go wrong with sushi and family.

It was the perfect evening!

I have been researching and it seems that muscle spasm are not a sign of healing. The ones in my leg are most likely caused by my leg having to stay in one position for a long time. OR they can also be a sign of dehydration... which I feel might be partly to blame. I don't think I am getting enough water and my skin is SUPER dry. I need to get more water in today to see if that clears up the dry skin and the spasms.

On a positive note, I think I am getting over the depressed mood I have been stuck in lately... YAY!!

Put On a Happy Face!

Today I am doing okay... the pain is getting a little less intense. It is still pretty sore and uncomfortable. I think some of that is due in part to the cast. I have a week and a day left before I get to take this thing off and get the stitches out! I am interested to see what the incisions will look like... my poor little ankle!

I think some of the pain is due to the cast and the way my foot is tilted. This cast seems much harder then the first one I had to wear. I am not sure why my foot is at this angle... perhaps it has something to do with the incisions?

I have started having these terrible muscle spasms in my leg. I am not sure what that means... is it due to healing? I will have to research it and see. They are very painful and they always seem to happen when it is time for bed. Awesome!

Tonight we are going out for my sweet husband's birthday. In my head I would like to go home and put on my PJs and lay down and cry. BUT... I will put on a happy face and have fun. I know it will be a great time! He is so good to me and deserves a fun night out.

Rocky...

Well... I made it through the weekend by sleeping through most of Saturday and trying to be positive and happy on Sunday. The problem with trying to be happy is that:

a.) it doesn't work at all!

b.) it just reminds you that you are depressed

I know I should be thankful and not see this surgery as a set back but it has truly brought back all the emotional issues that came with the accident to begin with. I am hoping that goes away quickly because I really want to be happy! I was getting so positive and then I took a nosedive into depressed.

I am back at work today and had a rough and rocky morning. It is really hard to get ready when you have one leg to stand on! I know that my husband would help me with anything that I needed but I hate having to ask for help all the time. I got hot and flustered and overall pissy. Add on top of that it is Monday and rainy and a back to work day... it just wasn't good. I got to work and a coworker got my coffee for me and I took a few minutes to pull it together and so far the day hasn't been too bad. I ate an awesome Kindergartner's lunch:

• Peanut butter and jelly
• Clementine
• Organic animal crackers

It was yum! Sometimes you just need some good ol' comforting food! This hit the spot and gave me time to blog and look around on the Internet to "decompress" for an hour. I am really ready to leave though!

Tomorrow is my sweet husbands birthday. The big 3-0! I feel bad because I am not able to throw him a big party or anything but I do have some gifts for him and a red velvet cake... his favorite. I think he will be okay!

Staying Busy!

I have found that having a project or having something to do makes getting better easier. It is hard to just sit on the couch with your leg up and watch TV. When you do that all you really do is sit around and think about how much pain you are in and it just gets depressing. I don't want to get depressed because that won't make this any better! So yesterday I really made myself "snap out of it" and worked on my scrapbook from our Charleston trip. It was fun looking at the pictures and picking out the cute paper and stickers to compliment them. I am about 1/3 done with the book so I will be working on it again today.



I am a little bit nervous about having to start work on Monday. Work is never fun but when you are in pain and having to walk on crutches... I think it will be worse!! It will probably be good for me to get up and out of the house though. The people I work with are very helpful so I know whatever I need they will get for me.

Over It!!

My ankle hurts so much!! I am thinking that hydrocodone is not as awesome as oxycodone. I still have some oxycodone left from my last surgeries... I might have to bust it out! The pain is so deep and nothing seems to make it better. I realize it has only been a day since my surgery but you would think that pain meds would ease some of this?!?

I took a shower last night and we had to drag out my shower bench. I hate that thing and when we put it up after my ankle healed last time I thought I would never see it again. I was wrong! Next time you take a shower, try doing it with the curtain/door open and your leg hanging out and see how clean you get... I feel kinda icky!! I am hoping that once I get the cast off and the stitches out, I will be able to take a regular shower.



This surgery has brought up a lot of the emotional pain that came from the accident. I have also found out some horrible information about the homeowner. I will not go into details here but I am no longer able to be friends with them. You cannot take back a life altering lie.

On a brighter note: I think I will work on a
scrapbook of our Charleston trip today!

Flowers Make Recovery Easier!

My dear sweet friend Lacey sent me these flowers! They have certainly put a smile on my face and brightened my mood!